ahem (re:  XX's kind and not too innaccurate assessment below - except I was 
just saying no until I took acid with Chris XXXX, after his first funky 
forays into this BayaryanWilderness) - no comment to the bearers of bad 
advice, no medicine, and perjorative, controlling behavior - I have this 
strange feeling Moss called Luke - I may be delusional

but now I have lost free and easy access to all the creature comforts I 
could have counted on in trying to take care of ALL my concerns

instead of just the ones I will never address to people I used to call

friend

it's a good thing all the social services are now available to me since I am 
jobless, destitute, and broke  (not the case in May)

it's almost as if some people would be happier to see me homeless, then see 
justice served in my peculiar case

tell XXXXX I would like about $1000 for the droogs (if he's ever rich and 
famous by his own 'solo' efforts) , forget the $200 - it's my best defense

XXXXXXX - loan me $40 you prick (I think you can remember why 'Daddio' - I have 
$3 to my name until I see GA on tuesday - oh yeah, and your sweater is my 
fave, or is it Robertos - the zip up navy one - you two have the BEST taste 
in clothes)

thank you few who still don't believe in me so much for the 'tough love' and 
'understanding'

it's more than abusive

it's heartbreaking

cold

cruel

and more unusual than my life has been lately

see you at #### XXXXX St someday

for $1 and a simple apology

and maybe at a big free party for my brother

to celebrate his birthday - he still loves me

my former 'friends' will never understand the man I've become

and frankly - I wouldn't want them to

god help you you sick fucking fucks  (though I still love you all, fool that 
I am)

and ps to anyone from the XXXXXXXXXXXXX camp - you might see me at 
burning man, red as an indian - of I which I am part (number nine?  who does 
number two work for? my lucky number always was six (since when my mom took 
me to Arlington park in chitown) - but if you don't know dem bones in the 
prisoner - then none of you all have any faith in number one in my book

jah you paranoid rastafarwannabes

I do believe and always have

in the power of YES, i.e. Jah

ps - for anyone who hasn't figured it out yet  Bob Marley was the messiah - 
please please please do not tell the rastafarians I told you so

ps XXXXX - I have a copy of John Lennon Remembers for you if you want to 
understand who I have become - then you can let me here how that second ep 
turned out

I ain't got no money - but I'll let Johnny Cash tell you all where to go 
from now on  (I have a 13th step for AA - make amends to the people who have 
wronged you)

ps - I believe, or at least I know I know about a dancer named sally who was 
murdered at brava theater back in the day

I was l'etranger in the six fire elder spectacle over there - and she likes 
to dance with me - whatever they did with her body in #### XXXXXX St

oh yeah - SXXXXX - RXXX has been my guardian angel since I had about three 
opportunities to die on 911, if it weren't for him  (had a dream that scared 
me, and had to run to see if 95 central was destroyed - it was an 
intellectual prison - whatever tongues JXXXXX and CXXXXX were speaking in 
before I worked for DeSoto)

and how about how much 911 did to us poetic gemini types - weird - two 
towers, 9  I I  - 9 months later - in a strangely gemini cosmic turning

what a saturn gate I had to unmaster the keys of

peace y'all

you won't see me in court

and 3 involuntary incarcerations to prove my sanity or chemical balance was 
none of y'alls business to begin with

peace

thanks and praises to the most high

who both parts of my bloodline called  the GREAT SPIRIT

one love

one truth

one mother

one soul

time for prometheus to close his box

see you all on the other side - good GOD do I need some californication